"Draw Emotion" 

It has been a while.... since my last writing. Hmm perhaps no more problem hey?
Rasanya ga begitu? problem comes and go... dan sekarang semakin bertambahnya usia, "just need to learn not away from problem" and facing the truth. Is not really paintful, at it was.... and " I always said to myself there is alot of way to accepting the truth, the only problem is how you deal with it.

"Emotion" is not alaways about anger, sometime your to dull and you just keep quiet and act like nothing happen.. and that is problem... in such away you can't draw any emotion to yourself or others..
I have spent a fun, crazy and adventourist week in my life with someone that I hardly knew, and yet "I can't draw my emotion to her"...and I can;t figure it out what happen with me and my chemistry....something change Nixon, and your to cold....or perhaps now it's a good time for you to realize that you need to wake up and make your mind....

That words, keep repeating it self, even when I wrote this....and it sad to said that" I can't draw my emotion, I only wish.... good thing happen twice...

one thing for sure, I'm still in the loop of fate--- and it goes circle, until you get your turn...
I'm also learning and trying to forget my last relationship... it's very hard and it's taken sometime.. and it the end is just about "me"...."me" and "me".... shame what shame...
The fact of loosing her, is the worst part of strugling and reaching for new life and even the old temple in menado warn me, it's about time to forget the past...including her.

yeah that the past, and now I'm thingking to the closest and yet I have not done anything..!!! again shame what shame....even the dot said" I have no idea or criteria for what I like" and now it's time to hunting..... but before that, " You need to change your self" and it must start from you....

to be continue.... my dear old blog....